Have been trying pretty hard to discipline myself for a short post every week but somehow it seemed to have failed since my last post.
At last! It’s 2014, a fresh new year ahead. Or so many thought.
But how confident are you that this year will be very much different from the previous?
Every year I started off on a high note, which eventually would dwindle down to mere statements that eventually meant that the reality is harsh.
Well, this year I should just focus on facts.
As much as I am extremely soft-spoken right now *roll eyes”, I resolved to speak louder and articulate my thoughts clearer.
My beloved mentioned that as the years passed, I seemed to have forcefully muted myself. Of cuz on the surface people would think that I’m generally an extreme introvert. But the changes that happened in between those years. Basically, I’ve changed. Refusing to entrust those who tried to be close, choosing to keep my guard high.
I can share. People may not accept. But I would not care. For this is my life. I can’t choose nor turn back what had happened and people have no rights to judge as much as they would not want others to judge them. People come and go. I will cherish dearly those whom were close but if they choose to leave I would not stop nor do more to explain myself. To me, it’s simple. If I can accept who you are, why can’t you?
He asked “why do you speak differently? In 2 tones? Why don’t you use that firm tone at work? It will definitely give you more confidence!” Him, the only one who spotted this weird habit of mine. My reply was fleeting, but I thought deeper to myself, why? Why not? I never dared.
“Let it go….let it go…can’t hold it back anymore.
Let it go…let it go…turn away and slam the door.
I don’t care what they’re gonna say
Let the storm rage on.
The cold never bothered me anyway” – Frozen, Let it Go, performed by Idina Menzel
Another fact, finally traveling to Perth in February! I was overjoyed to be able to go on this trip. I hope it’ll be an eye opening experience.
Next, my contract would come to an end in April 2014, and I need to make further plans before this date befalls. I would love to stay due to the learning experiences however the prospect of my current status needs more consideration. If not, I will probably leave for somewhere new. And only to return (to sg) when I’m doing well.
A new year and already so much negativity. I’ve learnt to live with reality. You can dream, you can make resolutions and you can be ambitious. But never forget to do a reality check. For not everyone is as lucky to be able to hit the jackpot, to find the right career path, to meet the right people who can groom you to success.
This is indeed a pretty demoralizing yet energizing post. Recently bothered by some unspoken issues. I wouldn’t want to read too much into it, anyhow, matters wouldn’t be revealed to me anyway. I’m always out of the loop. Then better to stay out than force my way in. Wouldn’t be happy either.
Shall end the post here with a Happy New Year to everyone and hope you’ll find your right path in life and walk sturdily upon it.