I am brimming with excitement!
Excited to carry out some wild ideas, excited to work with the new partners and staff.
Of course there are fears, but the excitement engulfs all.
I’ve made my choice and am thankful for friends and buddies who stood by my decision. I know I might have let some people down, but I just couldn’t let myself have any regrets. I know if I have made the other choice, I will always wonder “What if…”. I think after 2 years of hiding, it’s time to unleash myself for some exploration. I can never thank my supervisors enough for their guidance and mentorship. I’ve learnt loads in these two years and I got to know myself better too. I’ve found great buddies which are definitely gems-to-keep and very grateful that they stood by to give me moral support all these while.
It was really a tough choice and consulted everyone available in my social circle for advices. Eventually, all gave me the same answer “Babe, you need to follow your heart. Only then will you be able to sustain. Only then, will things work out for yourself.” And so I did. I hope by going down a different path from others, it will not affect any relationships. Because as much as I want happiness for others, I want happiness for myself too.
I have always looked up to my uncle for being a great biz man. Always idolizes and wanted to be like him , even to the extent I wanted to pick up marine engineering under him. Unfortunately, he wanted a male to look after his business, hence I had to sought for other routes. Many others were similarly traditional and objected to my pursue for entrepreneurship which started 5 years ago. They termed me “abnormal”. And so I embarked on as an “on-and-off” biz owner, one to make others happy (cuz I am salaried with stable contributions), one to keep myself happy (where I can explore ideas and watch them grow). It became a draining process, and there were many-a-times I tried brainwashing myself that I am happy in an employed situation and should just give up biz altogether. But after a while, misery overtook. I became unhappy, full of complaints, dwelling in sorrows and it was hateful. I shut myself out from others partly cuz they wouldn’t fully understand my situation except for some close buddies and Jack understood my dilemma. But he too can’t make decisions for my life. Today, he laid out the options clearly and what he could offer, weighing both I made the choice.
The future brings hope, fears and excitement. By staying true to my heart and working hard, I hope this will fruit into something great.
Thanks Daphie, CueQQ, Didi and Bi for standing with me against all odds. Your support is deeply appreciated. I know there may be concerns, but for once, I need to face my deepest ambition truthfully and not run away from it anymore.