我。

當退去光鮮外表 當我卸下睫毛膏
脫掉高跟鞋的腳 是否還能站得高
當一天掌聲變少 可還有人對我笑
停下歌聲和舞蹈 我是否重要

當一天舞台變小 還有誰把我看到
莫非是我不夠好 誰會來擁抱

我鏡子裡的她 好陌生的臉頰
哪個我是真 哪個是假
我用別人的愛定義存在 怕生命空白
卻忘了該不該讓夢掩蓋當年那女孩
假如你看見我 這樣的我
膽怯又軟弱
會閃躲 還是說 你更愛我

Have been doing a fair bit of self reflection over the past few weeks.
Realizing that revealing too much would eventually get myself hurt. Again.
I guess this sense of insecurity will never leave me. In the first place, I don’t rightfully belong.
May be seen as not trying. But maybe it’s the psychological barrier that I’m hesitating to cross
Perhaps I should not have chose to cross that line from the beginning. Then perhaps I would not be so disappointed in myself. .
And perhaps I may still be living up to people’s expectation. And perhaps. I would be happier.

Am very appreciative of the many things I have received, emotionally, verbally, physically, materialistically.
Will definitely miss the awesome experiences. But I know deep down. All these would end soon.
I may still be months away.I dare not hope much. But I will still try.

Changed. But still trapped in this isolated shell.
Hope the good days will last. At least till I’m gone.

I wish people can be blunt with me than be the rumor mongers that I would eventually walk away from.

Love,
Ylingz

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