會閃躲 還是說 你更愛我
Have been doing a fair bit of self reflection over the past few weeks.
Realizing that revealing too much would eventually get myself hurt. Again.
I guess this sense of insecurity will never leave me. In the first place, I don’t rightfully belong.
May be seen as not trying. But maybe it’s the psychological barrier that I’m hesitating to cross
Perhaps I should not have chose to cross that line from the beginning. Then perhaps I would not be so disappointed in myself. .
And perhaps I may still be living up to people’s expectation. And perhaps. I would be happier.
Am very appreciative of the many things I have received, emotionally, verbally, physically, materialistically.
Will definitely miss the awesome experiences. But I know deep down. All these would end soon.
I may still be months away.I dare not hope much. But I will still try.
Changed. But still trapped in this isolated shell.
Hope the good days will last. At least till I’m gone.
I wish people can be blunt with me than be the rumor mongers that I would eventually walk away from.